I feel so ashamed, I have spent most of my time since Bernie's passing drinking, not always drinking til the point where i cant stand up, but I have had a drink everyday. I'm not coping as well as I wanted too.And I still keep crying over little things, a programme on the telly, article in the paper, it makes no differance what it might be, theres always summat to set me off, like earler Danny smiled at me and in that moment he looked just like Bernie, it was the smile so much like Bernie that it took my breath away